Wow, you guys are the greatest. I had more than twice as many hits as usual yesterday, after my “all the ways I suck” post. I really appreciate the support, sympathy, and commiserating you offered.
No, I don’t really think I suck as teacher. I know I’m a good teacher. The problem is that I will never be done, and I will never be quite good enough because I could always do better. Some days those thoughts exhaust me.
Yesterday was one of those days when I wished I could have twelve uninterrupted hours in my classroom, all alone with just Adele on iTunes to entertain me, so I could get the whole room clean and organized, and do all my lesson planning and preparation for the next few weeks. Scratch that; twelve hours wouldn’t be enough. Twenty hours?
The point is that teaching is one of those professions where you never really are completely ready for everything, and you’re never really done with anything. There is ALWAYS something I could do better. Some days, the Sisyphean aspects of my beloved career are frustrating. Although, unlike Sisyphus, I know that the work I’m doing has a purpose, so that helps.
Angela in particular was very supportive in her comments, so you know what I did last night? I got online and bought her book! It hasn’t arrived yet, but I can’t wait to read it.
So here’s to you, my blog friends, and to all teachers who keep rolling that boulder up the hill. We do know, down deep, that it is all worth it.